Yes, New Years resolutions are usually expressed at the end of December or beginning of January, but that was a stressful time for me, so this post is a little late. But who cares! Yearly goals can be created at any time of year! I knew this year was going to be different for me. After living a life of depression and anxiety, I knew I couldn’t continue on in the same way. I knew there were things that needed to change in my life if I was ever going to become the person I wanted to be. The end of my most recent relationship in January was the catalyst for my self improvement project. I was at rock bottom. I thought “HOW COULD THINGS GET ANY WORSE?”, but the good thing about rock bottom is that things can only go up from there, and so I present to you,
2018: THE YEAR OF GLOWING UP
The first thing I knew I wanted to change this year was my mental health. It was the first step to getting everything else to fall into place. My self-sabotaging tendencies and depression held me back from the life that I wanted to be living. I never saw a future for myself. And if you can’t see a future, how can you work towards goals? You can’t! So in January, a week after my break up, I decided to start seeing a therapist. I don’t actually know the technical term. She might be a life counsellor. All I know is that it sounded much less intimidating than psychologist or psychiatrist. It took so much courage to reach out to her. I couldn’t even call her on the phone, because I had phone anxiety! So I sent her an email, and it was one of the best decisions I ever made in my life.
Afterwards, life became more bearable. At first I was skeptical about therapy. After all, I talked about my problems with my friends and family. What could a therapist tell me that they couldn’t? The answer is, a hell of a lot! She gave me coping mechanisms to deal with my anxiety and flighty tendencies. She also offered me something I never felt like I had before; an unconditional listener–someone to listen to all my problems and give me good solid advice. From there, things only got better. I didn’t feel so alone in this struggle.
So how exactly does one “glow up”? What even is glowing up? According to Urban Dictionary, a glow up is an incredible transformation from zero to hero. Ok, that wasn’t exactly what Urban Dictionary said, I paraphrased, but generally glowing up means going through a personal transformation where you started at rock bottom and reach the top.
I started January at rock bottom. By December 2018, I will be glowed the fuck up.
The following is a list of goals I have for my glow up list!
- Start seeing a therapist
- Get your mental health under control
- Find a new job
- Find an apartment
- Begin the process of going back to school
- Rejoin Rotary
- Begin exercising regularly
- Begin eating healthier
- Practice daily meditation
- Practice yoga regularly
- Cut out negative people
- Start saving for travel
- Update wardrobe to be more professional
- Read more books!
- Meet new people and make new friends
- Get a pet
- Buy a new car
- Start up your photography business
- Go to more events in the city
- Make a fuck ton of money
It’s June and so far I’ve accomplished almost half of these goals. Change is scary, but it can also lead to everything you want if you have the courage to take the first steps. For those who say nothing ever changes, it won’t change unless you make it happen. So go out there and tackle your goals. Do the things that scare you. Take on tasks that seem impossible. Don’t let anyone tell you that you can’t do something. And be kind to yourself. You’ll make it to the top eventually, if you work at it every day.