Hope that it will get better. Hope that they will change. Hope that you might still have the future you’ve been building up in your head. The hope is really what kills you. The thoughts of what might have been. You build up all sorts of expectations, and inevitably end up disappointed.
The hope is what kills you. It eats away at you until you are so miserable that you don’t even want to keep yourself as company anymore. To be human is to have hope, and to have hope is to suffer when those expectations are not met. To remove hope would hurt less, yes, but it would also remove those valuable lessons that we all must learn in life. It would take away the pain of living, but without the pain, how could you ever appreciate the happiness? How would you know light if you never knew darkness?
So don’t wish things were different. Just continue to have hope. Continue to learn your lessons, and continue to grow. Continue on as all other humans do, and use that shattered hope you’ve lived through to inspire others to overcome their own hardships. Continue to have hope, because it’s the most beautiful thing in the world.