Sunday Pep Talk | Trust Yourself

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Hello, friends! I have a secret to tell you. I don’t actually have any new years resolutions yet. I know. LAME. But there are things I want to do more of, and less of. I just haven’t gotten around to setting them as goals that I will actively work towards achieving. I mean, I made blog goals, and intentions, but those aren’t quite as real as resolutions, which I take to be things you actively do in your life to change things. Just to recap, in 2018 I:

Made my bed every morning
Got my mental health under control
Started therapy
Began a new job

This year, the things I’d like to do are:

Take care of more plants
Monetize my blog
Take my photography business to the next level
Move into my own apartment
Buy a new car
Publish that book I’m sitting on

These are big things. HUGE things. Cars are expensive. Apartments are also expensive. But if I can get my other goals completed, that shouldn’t really be an issue. 2019 will be a year about learning I can do the things, and then just doing the damn things. I always make excuses for why I can’t be a professional blogger and photographer. Interestingly enough, grad school did not make it onto that list. It’s something I’ve been considering ever since I graduated from undergrad, but for some reason I just can’t commit to that. Maybe it’s because I feel like the surreptitious college scam is finally coming to light, the idea that you need college to make money, when really all they do is enslave you to student loans. Graduate school is a ton of money! Sure, I could do it, but would I be any better off than I am now? I may have a better job, but I’d be paying more on my student loans. It’s a giant catch 22.

So instead, I’ve decided that 2019 will be focused on what I can do for myself with my own God-given talents. Not everyone can write, or take pictures, or both. I know I can do these things, but 2019 will be about accepting that I can do them for money. It’s easy! And graduate school will always be there, right? I just have to trust that I am on the right path and that I will lead myself exactly where I need to go.

And you should too! Trust that you know what’s best for yourself. If that means totally changing careers or ending a relationship with someone who loves you but who you’ve fallen out of love with, do the damn thing. This is your life. You have the power to make it anything you want it to be. Remember that your feelings are just as valid as anyone else’s. So listen to yourself. Trust yourself!

Sunday Pep Talk | New Year, New You


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Hello, friends. I hope you’ve all had a lovely holiday. 

They always say the New Years is a time of reinventing yourself, and I full heartedly agree with that! It has become the butt of every basic girl joke. Hashtag new year, new me! As they post an Instagram photo that has clearly been filtered and which will be followed by a bunch of snapchats of them puking in the toilet because they’ve embraced the new year a little too hard and couldn’t keep it all down. We’ve all been there, right?

No no, just kidding. All of the “New Years, New Me’s” are perfectly fine young ladies. And more power to them! Everyone deserves a chance to start over, and what better time to do that than at the beginning of a new year? Everyone has the power to change who they are; to be better, do better, reach out to those they hurt and start working on better relationships and friendships.

For me, in 2018 I swore I would get my mental health under control, and I followed through with that goal. I didn’t set too many for 2018. Just one. Get it together. Now, as 2019 rolls around, I am once again presented with an opportunity to make it a great year. What goals do I have in mind for 2019? Now that I have my mind straight, I would like to get my finances straight too. The wheels for this goal started rolling in 2018, but 2019 I will really try and focus on achieving the career goals I want. That means applying to graduate school. That means stepping into a leadership position and learning to manage groups of people. The old me would have told myself that these things were unachievable. The new me knows that if I work hard and stay focused on what’s important, I will be able to accomplish all of these goals.

What goals have you set for 2019? Whatever they are, I hope that you follow through with them and manifest the life that you want. You do have the power within you!

 

Yule Ritual

Hey there, friends!

I’d like to share with you a little Yule ritual my sister and I performed a few nights ago. We wanted to have a fire, but it was raining as it so often is in Pittsburgh. So instead we lit a candle to serve as our bonfire.

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The purpose of the ritual was to set our intentions for the new year ahead. We made a list of positive affirmations, wishes, and desires for 2019.


On my list I had things like:

Fearlessly embrace love

Spread kindness

Practice yoga

Grow my blog

Use my voice and set boundaries

Buy a new car


After creating the list, we meditated and visualized what we wanted to manifest. This was a very emotionally charged experience, in a good way. I was in a good mood to begin with, and focusing on the person I wanted to become made me that much happier.

When we were finished visualizing and meditating on our lists, we burned them in the candle flame and gathered the ashes in a pot. Mine burned quickly so my sister said I must have had very good energy and that my intentions would surely come true in the new year.

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We took the ashes outside and sprinkled them into the wind. I watched as my wishes and affirmations blew away into the universe with a beautiful moon looking on.

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I wish you all a very prosperous and productive 2019. May all your dreams come true and may your loved ones be happy and healthy.

Take care, and don’t forget to take your medications!

-Kat

Things I Learned In 2018

This has by far been the most transformative year of my life. I feel like the wall between who I was and who I want to be was finally smashed into dust. It was painful, yes, but I have come so far. There is no doubt that I am a different person. One who is handling her mental health, one who is putting work into her passions and what is important to her, and one who is working to build a life after her paralyzing depression. I’ve learned some valuable lessons this year in the process. Below is a list of some life advice I’ve acquired through gaining experience and leveling up. 2018 has been a tough level. It has been an underwater level. But 2019 is going to rock. So what did I learn?

  1. You are responsible for your own happiness. You won’t find it in someone else until you’ve found it within yourself first.
  2. Communicating really does solve a lot of things. No one likes communicating the icky things that can hurt feelings, but avoiding them will make them much worse.
  3. If someone wants to leave your life, let them go.
  4. Pain only lasts as long as you hold onto it.
  5. Therapy helps. A lot. And a surprising amount of people do it.
  6. Keep working on your passions. At the end of the day, those are the things that matter most.
  7. It is very possible to fake it until you become it.
  8. Wishing won’t do anything if you don’t take the action to make it real.
  9. Have fun! None of the drama will matter in six months.
  10. You are completely capable of creating the life you want to live and having everything you want. You just gotta do it.

Did you learn anything new this year? About life? About yourself? Share your thoughts!

As always, take care, and don’t forget to take your medications.

In Case You Missed It | 2018 Blog Post Recap

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As this year comes to a close, it is a perfect opportunity to look back at the progess we’ve all made and the things we have created. I have gone back through my blog and reread all of my posts. I am still in disbelief that I have been able to stick with it for so long! I’ve amassed over 62k words just in ten short months of blogging here at Antiquarius. Below is what I feel are some of my best posts. Some of the newer followers here may have missed some of these older posts.

Please give them a visit if they spark your interest!


The Benefits Of Daily Meditation

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I Am

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Loneliness In Adulthood

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Things Become Okay

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Productivity Tips

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Bullet Journaling For Beginners

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Forgive Yourself

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How To Make A Motivation Board

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If you have any posts you’d like to share from your own blog during the year of 2018, link them down below!

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Take care, and don’t forget to take your medications!

Why I don’t like Emilia Fart

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Emilia Fart is an “iconic” YouTube personality that puts out the most bizarre and unorthodox content you could imagine. She has changed her appearance to be the most outlandish and annoying eyesore on the face of the planet. She says whatever comes to her mind, no matter how embarrassing or shameful it is.

And this is why I don’t like Emilia Fart.

I love her. Yes. LOVE HER.

I wanted to hate her. The first video of hers that I watched had me utterly confused and I left that video questioning how I view society, culture, and my own personal conformity. I think a lot of her content could be misunderstood, but that is just a first impression. The deeper you go into her videos, the more you begin to understand why she does what she does. The more you begin to see the person that Emilia is, as well as the character she becomes.

Emilia Fart is a smart woman. She utilized her creativity, imagination, and braveness to create a YouTube channel that not only offers entertainment but really makes you think twice about the things you say and how you view others around you.

Is she all mentally there? That’s debatable. In fact, she herself has often questioned her own sanity in certain videos. But one thing that is true is that she is unapologetically herself. She speaks her mind and shows a vulnerability that pulls you in and has you laughing and crying right along with all her crazy antics. She knows she’s a little off the wall. She knows it. And that’s what makes her so unforgettable.

After watching her first video, I found myself thinking about her content throughout my day, unable to shake the images and messages she presented. I found myself singing her theme song in the car and changing my mindset to be more “Emilia”. She promotes unequivocal acceptance of all humans, no matter what they look like, as long as they are kind people. And if she doesn’t like something about you, she damn well is going to be real with you about it.

Something else I highly respect from her is that she films in her home and doesn’t try to fabricate her surroundings. She doesn’t pretend to have a minimalist life or to be perfect. She films in her dirty kitchen, she films her knick-knacks, and she films her unshaved legs; something I have mad respect for. Because as women, hell, sometimes you just don’t want to shave your legs. That level of acceptance encourages her viewers to be unabashedly themselves. Hairy legs and all.

One of the videos that spoke to me the most was her video, How To Stop Giving A Shit. The level of truth in that video just floored me. She speaks to all the weirdos out there who ever felt sad or attacked by someone’s comments, even if they were meant good naturedly. She speaks to everyone who has ever put themselves out there and been judged. She speaks to those who are scared to take risks or be themselves because they think that it’s better to fit in than to express the magic inside of them. Just have a watch for yourself. You be the judge.

I went into the Emilia Fart experience thinking she was a clown, an annoying showoff, and a desperately sad narcissist in need of attention. And she is. But she is so much more than that. She is a deeply complex person, just like everyone else, and she has some very powerful messages of acceptance to share with the world.


Have you seen Emilia Fart? What are your thoughts on her outlandish, in your face, absurdity?

Take care, and don’t forget to take your medications!